BACK like I never left! #Transformation UPDATE

Yallllll! Hey!! I have literally missed blogging so so much. So much has happened since my last post about going on a date with Jesus. All I can say is when you press in to His presence, doors open out of no where! It is truly an invitation for Him to take you deeper. When you look around in the moment it feels like nothing has changed but when you take a step back and look at ALLLLLLLLL that has happened- you see how He has moved.

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There is so so much I want to catch you up on. When I say, I do not know where to start- I mean that. God is doing such a crazy transformation in my life, it is truly beyond human comprehension.

*Rapid Fire- Stay with me*

My worship (weight-loss) journey is taking off. 🔥🔥 I am almost at 6 months of sobriety.💃🏽💃🏽 I am so so in love with my life in Tulsa. Friends have come and friends have gone and I have survived. God made it clear that there is so much more for Him to do with me before marriage *but its coming soon in Jesus name!* 💍💍 Transformation Church is pouring into me and into this community in ways that I can not believe. I can finally say that I love the woman that I am and I am beginning to see a glimpse of how my creator sees me! It is wild to think about how much things have changed in not even one year.

Today, as you read this blog I just want to encourage you. I want to share with you the things that God has been having to tell me time and time and time again over these past few months.

You are changing! You are progressing! Not one single thing that you have had to go through and experience was a waste. You are in a better place in SEVERAL areas of your life than you were a year ago, two years ago, five years ago. Over these past few months, I have been looking at how much further I still "need" to go. I still want to lose 60 more pounds. I still have 190 days until I have been sober a full year. I still have to forgive friends who saw my spiritual growth and turned their back on me. I have a ministry but I still have so so much more to learn and to do. It's been from such a warped mindset.

I have not looked at just how far I have come. I haven't taken the time to sit with the fact that I lost 100 physical pounds and probably double that in mental weight. I have been sober 175 days and that is the longest time EVER since I had my first drink in college. Even with all the friends that have left and that I have let go of, I have such a gangsta Godly community around me that at any moment I can call someone and get prayer and have them speak to the Father on my behalf. One of the biggest blessings is this ministry. The fact that you are reading these words right now is an answered prayer. I have thought of you and prayed for you. God has told me that my story would impact His people and you are one of them.

Another HUGE thing I have learned over these few months is let God redirect your path. I just knew God had told me my Youtube and blog would be about: Faith, Lifestyle and Travel. Who would have thought that God would not let me travel at all this year. 😅🤧 (Trust me I have cried enough tears to last a life time) When I said lifestyle I thought like vlogs, day in the life, get ready with me's lol cute stuff. The way God has let my health and worship journey take off!!! Literally redirected it all. I knew that my career in college advising was stale but I couldn't see what ministry would look like. I can admit I have been fighting it a tad bit but I am finally just surrendering.

God you can have my life, you can have this ministry, you can have my career and everything I own. Its yours. At church today I kept saying "Not my will but your will... Not my will but your will." Maybe there is something in your life that God wants to change. Its like He invites us to let Him change it BUT if we hold on too tight He allows that thang to SHAKE UP!! Surrender today and just tell him "Not MY will, YOUR will."

I pray that you extend yourself some grace and look back on how God has kept you! Whether your relationship is were you want it or not quite what you want, He has his hand on you. Also, let God redirect your path. I promise you it will be amazing and He will blow your mind! I updated yall on errrrythang super quick! #MyBad More blogs coming soon! Be blessed!

XOXO- @ThePaigePatton