Go Hard or Go HARDER

God is so intentional. It’s evident with me I always have to provide context. So stay with me lol.

In therapy a few weeks ago, I had to do a consultation. This was getting down to the basics. “How many siblings do you have? Rate your current emotional state from 1-10. How is your current physical activity?” Honey- I literally wrote “I walk my dog. That’s it” Of course that came up in conversation and I tried to dance around it.

My weight has ALWAYS been a hard topic. I’ve relied on food from a young age. Starting private school at three years old was hard and the way I made it through the day was indulging in snacks and desserts. Chileeee, I endured bullying all day the strenuous homework and studying took me out. I wanted to be perfect. Food was there to lift my spirits.

Fast forward, I’ve lost weight multiple times. In Highschool I joined drum line and made it down to 180 lbs. Over time my weight shot back up. Then after college graduation I moved to Rocky Mount and gave it my all and made it down to 220 lbs. Again, over time my weight shot back up.

So- here I am again. In the midst of transition and I know I have to get my health in order. Last night, the girl who went from braiding my hair to becoming my first friend in town💃🏽💃🏽 told me about her journey. The Holy Spirit orchestrated that ENTIRE encounter- it was WILD. She grew up in Transformation Church and the way our connections were set up it was truly meant to be.

When she told me “How does it look to God when we have everything else in our lives together except our health? He gave us this temple. There are things we can do in the spirit but there is always going to be things we need to do in the physical." Literally as she did my hair she was pouring into me. It was evident this conversation was on purpose. She couldn’t have known I was telling myself earlier this week to get to the gym. I ignored it. The conversation I had with my therapist. I tried to suppress it.

Right in that moment she encouraged me to reach out! The trainer messaged me back and scheduled my consultation for the next morning- October 1, 2021. Yall, she went a step further and offered to be my accountability partner!! Sis even pulled up to the gym the morning of my consultation!!! Lets just take a moment and thank God for God orchestrated connections. 🙌🏽🙌🏽

So- Go Hard or Go HARDER!! That's my gyms motto. Today I met my trainer and had a consultation. Whew chileeee I tried to mentally prepare myself and there was absolutely NO WAY I could have prepared myself. I did a warm up, upper body-five reps, legs five reps and a cool down.

Yall- I JOINED A GYM!

Even though I have started and stopped a million times. This time I doing it with Christ! As much as I told myself I didn’t need help and that I’ve done this on my own twice— this time is different. I’m putting training wheels back on and I am relearning how to take care of my temple.

Pray for me. Encourage me. I legit almost threw up at my consultation. Sis was dehydrated. Sis was overthinking. Sis was in her head🤦🏽‍♀️ I just have to keep pressing. Paige Nicole in March of 2022 will thank me for making this decision. I am just overwhelmed and thankful that God used my hairstylist to help me kickstart and jump on this process.

XOXO-Paige Nicole