One week down... so many more to go!!

It is really wild to be sitting in the promises of God. You right now, reading this... YOU are sitting in a promise of God! So many times we pray and we fast and we try to muster up everything in us to believe that God will do what He says. That moment when you take a second and pause to look around. You realize that the promise keeper really kept his promise.

There is so much I want to tell you about what Jesus has been doing these past few months. He has been transforming my body physically. He has been shifting my mind mentally. He has been revealing to me new dimensions of his love. This blog, I want to focus on how I know my God to be a promise keeper. *cues praise break*

I have been super transparent about my journey. My move to Tulsa in Crazy Faith, my deliverance from homosexuality, my 239 day sobriety journey and my 100 pound weight loss journey. I am physical, walking and breathing proof that if you have a REAL encounter with the King of kings, NOTHING in your life can stay the same.

One area God had me walking through for the past ten months was something that I didn't share openly online about. Having passed the test, I am realizing just how much shame I had around something God orchestrated.

In December of 2021, God spoke to me very clearly and told me that I would not be able to bring my job into 2022. 2022 was my year of Obedience and there was confirmation after confirmation after confirmation. The cherry on top was when I told my boss about leaving. She had every reason for me to stay until mid January. If I stayed I would have a full paycheck, I could tie this project up for the team and do xyz. The world's pull was for me to stay so bad, I knew it was God telling me to leave because it didn't make sense.

I left my job with no savings and no back up plan. Four months into a new apartment lease and a car note from the new car God allowed me to get during my move. I stepped out of the boat on faith. I was thinking this would be a little 30 day journey. LOL It lasted 10 months.

I will save the details for another time but over the past 10 months, the Holy Spirit lead me through the wilderness. The enemy gets no credit for what God developed in me. Holy Spirit was with me the entire time but I was so so crushed. I did not have a full time job but still had responsibilities from the mess I had made of my finances. I sat with God and walked through each of the fruits of the spirit. As I was believing God for food and for lights, he was building my character. He was removing relationships that were hindering me and not helping push me to purpose. People who didn't understand my obedience had to fall away. God had to completely break every false idol and identity off of me so that I could trust him fully.

During this time of being on God's payroll, things were not going according to my plan. Legit, God was/is a bomb boss- the only problem was I never knew when the payday would be or how much the paycheck would be. He told me not to apply for jobs, not to ask for help but to trust Him as my provider. That felt like the hardest thing in the world to do. He told me my next job, I would not have to apply for but I would get because of my servants heart. Fast forward through me applying to TC in disobedience and getting SLAYED lol in the interview, God brought a whole miracle! I was able to work as a ministry assistant/ Assistant Director for His Daughter's Closet! The best first ministry job a person could have. That will be a whole blog in its self because it was legit a miracle.

For almost five months, I served HDC with everything in me. As we were on a roll prepping for the fall and 2023, God began to speak again. We had gotten comfortable in our routine and were planning for expansion and God began to remind me of a promise he gave me in 2020. In the midst of the pandemic 1,000 miles away from Tulsa, Oklahoma God told me I would work for Transformation Church.

Again, I will spare the details for another blog/youtube video but God opened a door that no man, including myself... I tried multiple times, could close. On October 17th, THREE YEARS TO THE DATE of when my best friend Shavonne sent me the youtube link to Crazy Faith, I was starting a position with Transformation Church.

I talked to my youth pastor and he told me, "Paige, you are not chasing a career, you are chasing God." That is literally all this journey is. I am listening for my Fathers voice. I have made mistakes this year: I gave my car away and got it back the next day.. I have grown in my discernment around peoples motives and intentions. I have learned to be quiet and not share a revelation until God says it's time. The greatest lesson I have learned is that God keeps His promises.

So today, I don't know what word God has given you. It could be that your family will be restored, your husband is coming, financial freedom is on the way, the new house that you have always dreamed of, or peace in your heart and in your mind. Whatever word God spoke to you, IT HAS TO COME TO PASS. Take this as a sign, as some encouragement that things have to look dead for God to resurrect them. Any situation in your life that looks the complete opposite of what God said, GET EXCITED!! That means in just a little while longer, the creator of the universe is going to pull up on the scene. We serve a BUZZER BEATER GOD! I swear He loves the dramatics of the clock ⏰ almost running out. Just when it feels like there is no hope, God brings the very thing that you need.

For me, rental assistance had ran out. My car was taken four days before my first day of work. My money was non existent. It was in that moment where it was a recipe for me to act a fool like God had forsaken me, instead I began to pray. I began to thank God for every single day I had food to eat but my account was in the negative. I began to thank Him that my lights never got cut off. I began to thank my Father, that these tests did not wipe me out but they made my testimony that much stronger. I promise you! No matter what you are facing right now, if you stop and begin to remember every single thing you survived. That divorce, the abuse, the break up, the parents leaving, the molestation, the back stab, the eviction, the financial block. YOU HAVE SURVIVED SO MUCH!!

One week down in the position God promised me. 😊 My faith is on a whole other level. God was finally able to trust me with this burden. He knew that in this season of my life, I don't want any of this glory. All of the glory belongs to Him. It is really wild to be sitting in the promises of God. So many times I prayed and I fasted and I tried to muster up everything in me to believe that God will do what He says. That moment when I took a second and pause to look around. I now realize that the promise keeper really kept his promise to me.

-xoxo Paige